Life is ass

Sighhhh my birthdays next month and ngl I'm preparing to see what the fuck will go wrong this year LMAO. But also life is going by so fucking slowly and quickly its insane?? Like, I get it, its May and its 2025 like don't get me wrong, THATS CRAZY, but like if anything its more like.. LET ME REACH DEATH??? LIKE NO WAY AM I STILL ALIVE AFTER ALL THE BULLSHIT I"VE ALREADY GONE THROUGH . 

There is no plus side, life is so fucking boring in addition to it already being ass. Like, there's nothing to dooooooooo. I get so bored of doing the same shit every day but sigh its not like I'm allowed to go out which just sucks even more >:/. Like what the hell am I supposed to do, play games?? watch YouTube or some shit?? ITS SO BORING. I need to feel the wind in my face or SOMETHING, I'm as much as a dog as our pets are. Shit at this point they go out more than I do. I want to feel alive but is life even worth living?? Yes?? No??? MAYBE???? I DONT KNOW. I've made it this far, the least I can do is continue. It just feels like my life is on autopilot and I'm waiting for the next dreaaadfullll day. life . is. FUCKING BORING UUUGHHHHHHHHH. I had a dream I had a tattoo on my leg though, it was Juji Ito esc and I fawwwkkkiinnnggg loved it. Ngl i'm adding it to my tat insp ehehheheheheh anyway that's it that's the yap I hope you have a day. not a good one or a bad one, just a day. have a day chat.