i hate being in love

I feel so stupid for falling in love with this certain person they were totally perfect and everything I wanted. I let myself be in love and have feelings which I never let myself do because I hate being in awe of people I let myself believe that they would actually like me hahaha. But I cried about them to my best friend, listen to a sad song, and now I'm writing about it so I can be over it and not care okay that's it I'm done being gross and sappy I'm going to take shot and be done. hopefully I"ll find love some day:)