More thoughts

I hate how black and white living can be sometimes. It's like someday you're having the best day ever and the next you just realize how bland and repetitive everything gets and there's only like a thousand obstacles in your way you have to hurdle through every day to get what you want, and sometimes you wouldn't even have to wait a day it could just be a couple hours from your nice moment. The only way for many to get through life being older is through pills, liquor, stuff like that but for me I don't know what it's worth to lead a life like that, now that i'm really analyzing this stuff the term "ignorance is bliss" really mean's a whole lot now. The only way to live and have fun is to ignore but when I see other people doing this stuff I get so fucking embarrased or cringe for them when really they're just getting lost in the moment and having lots of fun. It's just real curious and like interesting figuring somebody out like why they are the way they are. 

This is somewhat off topic but it'd be real nice to have privacy, it's one of the only things that keep me comfortable and like sane and happy... I always hear my mom talk about my life to my grandparents and if you wanna share your life that's fine but when it's stuff personal and stuff that doesn't need to be fully expressed to them DONT DO IT... my mom should somewhat realize what i'm like by now but if i'm still that 10 yo who could never get off fortnite what the hell ever then.

Summer always seems to shift moods around, I really can't wait for all that, that and winter are always happy, everything else is either off-beat or depressing. See you guys next post or next time I feel so strongly about something I need to get it out, farewell guys...