I'm willing to live life if everyday is like this

Having the privilege to have this kind of days I have when we have no school is unimaginable. My birth giver doesn't have work so I don't have to do anything. She doesn't really care about me and I don't really care about her. I'm just glad she let's me be as lazy as I want and only rarely comments on it. 

Laying down on my bed, staring at my screen making my vision worse, our room perfectly ventilated, alone in a shared room with my siblings so I can talk to myself. Ah, if this is how everyday is go, I am willing to live to experience it. 

Being close to nature as we live in the mountains is also such a great factor as the trees driver clean air unlike the town. This is why I do not like going to the town. I don't need to unless I want to! 

Everyday is an endless cycle of waking up, using my phone, eating and then sleeping. But that's a cycle I am willing to live on. 

This kind of mentally is quite unhealthy. It's not that I am a bedrotter, well that's impossible because of three factors! I go to school, a clean freak mom, and I do not own my own room. ( Although I wish I do. ) but I do rot most of the days I don't have school. Just laying down, doing stuff with my phone or anything I want on my bed. I don't move around that much anymore because of this habit. And that unfortunately gives me some posture problems and some body aches. 

Yes, it's possible to still feel body pain even if you're laying down. I am the living proof and story teller of this. 

Raaa, in a way I feel as though I am slowly turn into Nagi post-blue lock. In a same cycle, just living and not really paying attention to anything else other than my phone. 

In my own little world where every unwanted noise gets immediately blocked by my wired earpods. In my own little world where I give myself a rest from everything through rotting. In my own little world where I mostly do nothing. I love my own little world. 

I love blocking every unwanted noise coming from outside with music, putting the volume so high I can't hear my own thoughts, I love making my vision worse by staring at the screen the whole day, I love talking to myself about things and more, I love only coming out to use the rest room or to eat, I love everything about the little tiny life I have when there's no school.