4/05/25

hey, it's me ryan. i havent slept a bit but i'll probably sleep in class tomorrow. i prefer the half-state sleep rather than deep sleep, because if i go through deep sleep, ill dream or have a nightmare thatll both stain the sheets

my good dreams is a dream where my parents will be home, or a life where i have animal friends or transported into disney (someplace magical) or any movie i watched. but i cry when i wake up because i wake up alone and in my room, so is it really a good dream? my good dream is a dream where i died maybe, but ill wake up knowing im still alive, and ill still cry hahah

i dont think i have to explain my nightmares. good dreams are a reflection of your desires after all, and if you desire something, that means something is missing, right? 

love, ry