persona 5 and art block

I dont think I've talked about this on here but I've been playing Persona 5 for the last few months (Currently 38 hours in) and have just started the Yusuke confidant.

For those who don't know about the game, I'm not gonna explain the plot bc it isn't relevant but I will say that it's a game where you can hang out w characters and learn more about them, and there is a character that's really into art and stuff like that. So in this game he asks you for help overcoming his artblock and says these lines:

"In the earlier days of my career, I would exclusively paint what I desired, when I desired it. The only goal I had in mind was the pursuit of pure beauty... That goal is what drove me onward."

"That is why I am so upset with my own indecision. Such vague ambition is, in essence, a sin of sorts... Though I suppose allowing my young career to come to an end here would be even more sinful."

"Impurity of the heart will undoubtedly seep onto an artist's canvas eventually."

These lines really touched me because lately I've been posting my art on tiktok and instagram and I find myself stressed out about having to make videos, trends that people like, making "good" art and it leaves me even rushing drawings that I'm not even happy with in the end...

But have I ever even had a purpose for drawing? I've only ever drawn to express my emotions, so what happens when I'm not feeling anything?

Ig I'm just really not made for content creation because I draw like shit when I'm being rushed, like, I draw rlly fast normally, specially if it's something that's coming from the soul and something I really like, but when I know I have a time limit, like a DTIYS, It doesn't come out as good, or when I'm aware that I "HAVE" to post something that day and be consistent.

And my drawings are shit when I'm trying to appeal to certain trends or characters that are popular..

Idk, I guess it's something I have to think about and rn I'm fucked bc I didn't know I was gonna go out w my family for mother's day tomorrow and I had planned on doing all my schoolwork and studying last minute and I have to get shit done now (It's 23:45/11:45pm)