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helloo !! its lem ,, its been a while .. im typing this on a windows xp lol idk how i did it.. anyway ,, lately i have been thinking about death alot and what comes after it. at first ,, i was terrified !! id would have panic attacks every single day thinking about it but now im kind of less terrified obviously im still scared but now im more curious about how other people feel about death . some people think theres a heaven and some people think its just nothingness.. i cant imagine nothingness. it seems so scary but i feel like as we get older ,, it will become less scary. i hope so ,, i dont wanna be old and dying and being terrified of it. anyway ,, what do yall think comes after it ,, and if you are atheist how do you cope with knowing about the fact you are certainly going to die one day ? im really interested on this topic.
sometimes throughout my life i experience tough situations and in those tough situations i just remember im going to die one day and that i shouldnt worry about it. it really helps but it also creates another problem ,, me being scared of death :') i used to be suicidal ,, but thinking about death and what comes after it has really helped me appreciate life more. dont kys there is so much more you havent experienced !! and now ,, i love my life even though ive been through alot i tell myself in the end its all going to be okay.
if you are ever struggling ,, remember one day you will get better and stronger and that you shouldnt end your only chance at life because of something. this is what all of us humans will experience. its almost impossible to have a perfect life. theres GOING to be challenges. and thats what makes us stronger.
think about it for a second. we are living on a floating rock in a big big universe and we are all conscious beings made of stardust all born to experience life then die. thats beautiful in my opinion. we have feelings ,, memories and we all have our own story and we get to explore and stuff . give life a try and then once its time ,, you can pass ^_^
thank you for listening to my yap sesh about death lol hope you enjoyed
lem signing off ;3
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As another formerly suicidal person, I was ridiculously full of myself back then and thought I unlocked some kinda hidden truth about having to break the cycle of life and free ourselves from that cage by killing ourselves and fusing with the most rational and objective thing in the universe, whatever's inanimate and dead, rocks, dirt, anything of that kind. So basically, returning to a state of zero awareness and consciousness. I thought that shit makes you superior to lifeforms. Stupid old me. I still believe that there's zero consciousness and awareness after death, but now I believe the lines between what's living and what isn't aren't as rigid as we think if even scientists can't define it, so basically you could say rocks, molecules, atoms all are forms of life and its cycle. So I came to accept it instead of trying to escape from it as my corpse is just gonna perpetuate it anyway, y'know? Hope that made sense lmao. As for how I cope with death (I'm not an atheist though, I'm more agnostic), I don't. If I'm not the one killing myself then I'll freak out because that means I am leaving my plans unfinished even if they don't matter in the end. And honestly being suicidal back then really fucked with my sense of time. I always feel like it's running out and I have to reach my goals asap so I can plan my death in peace cause I like predictability.