boyfrennn (*´ω｀*)

okay hello. im never really sure how to start these things, maybe it will get easier? gosh idk. ANYWAY! i have a boyfriend, right? and i love him! but god i feel so bad for him, we started dating just over a month ago after a veeeeery long talking stage (12 days...) but in my defence! we did used to talk (and when i say used to talk i mean we had a two month long talking stage and it ended because he confessed and i was too scared to say anything back 😓 yes i know that was absolutely my fault and YES i liked him back so so so much i was just scared and stupid...) so we already kinda knew each other, and when he asked me out, what was i supposed to say "hi so i really like you but i want to take things a bit slower" 

okay so i'm reading that back and that is almost exactly what i should've said. but oh well, we're happy now and that's all that matters! the main point of me creating this blog was to talk about the fact that i just feel SO. FRICKIN. BAD for him, as i said before, we've been dating for just over a month, and in the time i've managed to be busy almost every. single. day. and i know you may be thinking "um aneke how in the world is that possible?!" well here's the thing: 

the first weekend we started dating, i have a school trip. the day after that i was hanging out with my bestfriend (it had been planned for weeks, i didn't want to cancel on her). the next day i was packing, and the day after that i was on my way to thailand!! it was an amazing trip, i got to go with my family and my cousins!! and here's the thing, it was an amazing trip and it lasted the whole school holidays and a bit more! and unfortunately, as i'm sure a few of you readers would know (and if not, this would be so extremely embarrassing) i'm sick at the moment and i've had almost the whole week off school (by the way we were hanging out a lot on the few days i went) ANYWAYS, my point is that i feel super bad for not being able to hang out with him, and this is just a bit of a vent/rant post.

AND THEN just this weekend we were supposed to hang out (when i say "this weekend" i mean literally today) we were supposed to hang out but my older cousin, who's also my dad's god son (if that means anything? i'm not religious...) came down to stay last night and my mum said i shouldn't hang out with anyone today, and then tomorrow i have a family lunch, which will likely end up lasting all day, so i can't hang out with him tomorrow either. maybe monday! 😅

anyway, that concludes my rant. hope it didnt bore any of you readers to death LOL!!