addicted to cigs

ive been smoking alot lately and this is hell. Before i have NEVER even held a cigarette and now i am smoking 2 PACKS OF IT EVERY WEEK. I've been trying to stop myself from doing more but my body just doesnt want to, it craves like a whole new being inside of me. Everyone was right, ts is addictive and CAN kill you. Been coughing nonstop ever since ive tried it, sooner i'll be laying down the hospital bed still coughing my lungs out. But man i am not gonna lie, the feeling this piece of sht gives is just nice and calming. Makes me feel like mom comforting after getting scratch and stops me from crying. HEAVENLY but comes with a huge risk lololololol