over do 5/2/25

im only gonna take half i say as i raise up the broken pill in half knowing i cant trust myself with that other half

i over do a lot of stuff just out of pure confidence that i think i can handle it

but im still just a kid with kid organs and kid mind and kid discipline which is none

i take the second half.

now im in a daze,or im in a field with daisies patting the sides near to me just to get a feel

or im sitting in my bed going in and out of consciousness for over doing anything and everything i have ever had

i wake up in my “field of daisies” which is just my bed with a dim light flashing me in the corner of my eyes as my “sun” 

i stumbled off of my bed like a little baby deer thinking im about to die

i panic and i throw up right there and then and i just cry acting like i didnt know this would happen 

acting like i wasnt the kid to go near the cigarette areas just to get a sniff of the rich smoke dancing in the air

like i was wise enough to say how i can stop when i want to stop as i spend another 60 bucks on just a line of powder or some junk pills i can get at a pharmacy 

i over do everything in the pureness of my mind thinking my better than that

well im not