idk what 2 call this

i honestly dont know what 2 do because idk what i want anymore. not sure how to explain it but i switched to online school because something happened at school but i thought it would be better but now i just feel lonely, yes i have friends but only like 2 that i actually talk 2 and one of them i dont rlly like and dont want to be friends with him anymore. (not u mitch)

but the second someone wants 2 be friends with me i push them away because i want to be alone? i dont know sum1 HELP!