STUPID HOEEEE

What is actually wrong with some poeple? I really don't understand how someone can be so fucking emotionally dumb and numb. 

Tell me why I had just gotten so close to this one girl at my school, like extremely close. I thought wow I'm found a really cool friend. She starts to open up to me so I open up to her which does NOT happen often. I gave her all my time and effort since I really value my friendships.

When she was hungry I gave her my food, when she was cold I gave her my jacket, when she needed help I helped. Everytime we have these small fuck ass petty arguments and I try to talk things out to understand her point of view or to just apologize she just mumbles and tells me she's tired and y'know what? Fine. 

I leave her be I don't force her to talk but at one point it just gets annoying. One day the thought crossed my mind. If i just stopped always approaching her first would she even talk to me? 

Yeah spoiler alert, no. She didn't utter a word to me. wow. Here I thought if I stopped always needing to try to fix everthing and stand up for her when she couldn't she'd at least try to ask me what's wrong. 

But nope. She runs along hanging with MY friends get together with the guy I liked (IDC about that anymore since I have a bf but like still) what's up with that? 

And I don't attach myself to people that easily but when I do that means I really trust that person, it's just such a betrayal. 

What really pisses me off is the facts that her reasoning to not talking to me is because ''I'm angry at her'' and that I look ''mad'' like can you please use your fucking brain? I'm not usually an angry person the only time I actually get angry is like at teachers that have some sort of god complex or just like people that talk shit before even getting to know that person. 

The WHOLE time I was her friend I was nothing but kind. Only time I actually raised my voice when was when I was laughing or when something sad happens and I yell ''noooo''. 

I ALWAYS talk things out and she knows this because everytime she asks me for advice I always tell her talk to that person, it's the best option. No matter if they look angry or what you think their going to say. She just wants to come up with excuses which don't add up because multiple of my friend have repeatedly told her that i'm not angry. 

Now they haven't specifically told her to talk to me because I want her to herself understand the importans of communication but all I learned form this was that she clearly dosen't give a shit about the friendship we had. 

(ps she has self diagnosed bpd and depression while people who actually suffer from that have to deal with it daily, it's not some cute quirky ''wow i'm such a teenage dirtbag that hasen't gone through anything and has a loving family'' thing, like seriously).

This is her feel free to roast her