Softball(★ω★)

After injuring my finger in softball I've been feeling down about how I play. I felt that my throws were horrible and I couldn't catch anything either. I don't think it was only about how I played but also how I wasn't being put to play in games. During games I would sit in the dugout since I wasn't playing. It just made me feel worse about myself. I felt like I wasnt good in softball and not only in softball but in other things as well. It made me really think about how I wasn't even good in anything else. I kept thinking about how useless I was. I couldn't do anything right or even be really good at anything. In games I kept checking the clipboard hoping to at least see my name on my list to go up to bat. Every single time I looked at the clipboard my name wasn't there despite that,  I kept looking hoping that I could at least play once or even substitute for a runner. Ive been wanting to skip school so I could skip practice. I didn't wanna be in softball anymore because felt that I wasn't a good player. I think that, because I thought this way I wouldnt bother trying and been skipping school. I don't know what happened to me today. It was as if all of a sudden motivation just entered into me. I did good today and I felt proud of myself. I realized I wasn't a bad player I just didn't try hard. I thought I was trying my best but I wasn't. I thought I wasn't capable of doing anything but I am. I kept telling myself that I would never be good even if I kept practicing or trying. I now know that I can be as good as my teammates. I know I can also be a good player.