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I can't quite find a way to take myself seriously.
I'm graduating soon, as I've said before in a post I made a while ago and while I'm trying so hard to work on my last few projects, I find myself wishing that I could just pick myself up and shake myself up. It's so hard to do work, even if it's for a field I really want to get involved in.
I need to make a brand for myself, start my own business, find a way in, get a home, get a car, make money, sell my products, blah blah blah... Yes, I want to be successful. I crave success in a way I'm sure most people do. There's so many things I need to do, but I feel like I'm gasping for air.
Being in such an uncertain position is so nerve wracking, I wish I could hit pause. I need a break, but I can't. Because if I break then how long will it take to get back up on my feet? It's all so complex and the path is so uncertain. But then I wonder how many other people feel the same way as me right now.
Maybe I'll be okay in the end, but focusing on the now is suffocating. I wish I was one of those people who wake up super early and do all their work in a day.
Oh well.
Toodles for now till my next crashout! xx
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I feel you with every single word you have written down in this blogpost.
I'm studying to become an audiologist, while also wanting to make something out of myself with my music, maybe start a clothing line too; I am irreparably overtly ambitious, despite not being able to even focus on one thing correctly.
My anxiety about my future exceeds my present state every single day, all we can hope for is that we will manage to overcome what's keeping us down and look back at it as trivial, until we have a new objective, that is.
Wishing you the best of luck!
Thank you for taking the time to comment! It's always slightly relieving to know I'm not the only one losing my mind with the pressure of it all. I'm sure you'll make it someday. Ambition and somehow having a lack of it at the same time is... Well, a struggle.
Eh, we live :')
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