Being cupioromantic sucks

Like honestly being cupioromantic sucks. So many ppl around me have ppl they like so seriously, and ppl they wanna live their whole lives with. It’s js kinda sad bcs I haven’t felt like that (and probably will never) for anyone.

I wanna love someone for who they are, and not because the idea of a relationship appeals me. I wanna understand someone, and be understood in the same way. I want a relationship and I want someone to stay.

But the person themself..? I doubt I’d get attached to them specifically. I’d get attached to the relationship sure, but not the person.. I’d romanticize it, and fall in love with the idea I’ve made for myself. Not the person. Not my partners. Not even myself. Just the idea of loving, and being loved.