my diagnosis was… wrong?????

holy shit. so all this time, the diagnosis that i thought i had was actually wrong??????? how the fuck am i meant to process this????? 

i had a re-evaluation because i just got on aripiprazole and it’s been a while since i’ve last been evaluated and… what the fuck???? i’m not schizotypal?????

i don’t meet any of the criteria required for a schizotypal diagnosis. none. the diagnosis which i’ve been using to better understand myself was a lie this whole time. to say that i’m distraught is an understatement. fuck all this bullshit. 

and since i live in brisbane, all the psychiatrists are overfilled and cost an arm and a leg for a single session. and to get an actual, real, diagnosis, i have to wait for months if not years for a free assessment. still have to take my stupid fucking meds though.

i’m too old for this.