Things that annoy me

Guys, tell me why when I make lyrics about shit that I hate, disturbs me, or what I love so much in the world, I just sit there and ask myself "how am I gonna make it to be a singer?" Like, I have pretty good vocals but the problem is that I don't know how to start or even know how to play an instrument. I'm so bummed at the fact that I can't even play the acoustic guitar or anything like that but only know how to sing. And you know what frustrates me the most? Its when people try to be "realistic" about me being a singer, like you don't even know if I'm gonna succeed or not if I try it out. Not only that but it's also this thing that my mom believes that she needs a man for her loneliness but in reality, she needs some therapy to fix her mentally. Not only that but it's when I tell her that she's wrong with some strong ass evidence, she would say in front of my face "that's not true, you're in the wrong." Okay but who is the one who gets praised for their intelligence every time my teachers sees you? Me so stfu because u bet you that if I tell you that you're the smartest person in the world, you would believe that shit. Now, I know I'm being REALLY disrespectful about my mom, but it's true, she pisses me off with her stubbornness.