adulting

In march I turned 20, I first cried during 1 week before turning 20 because I didn't want it. I don't want to grow up... it's not the fact of getting older that I dislike, it's the responsibilities that comes with it. 

After high school I chose to do a degree in communication, turned out that I didn't like it, not because I did not like communication, but because of the university system that we have in Belgium and I would say in most European countries. I hate the fact that to get a degree I need to take useless classes, and I also hate the fact that in most universities the first year of the degree is a year to filter and eliminate as many students as possible. 

This year I chose another degree... nutrition, to become a dietitian. I decided to do that because I was really liked food and because I lost a bunch of weight. At first, I really enjoyed my classes, but after a while I became OBSESSED with my body and with food (nutrition is not for the weak). So I quit, I stopped going to school at the end of February. 

My parents paid for my two years (last year in communication and this year in nutrition). And they found out that I quit again. They were so disappointed in me, they wonder what I'm going to do with my life. I told them that next year I would either do a community manager training (idk if that's named like that), or take a gap year to figure out what I want to do with my life. After I told them that, they kind of forced me to choose a degree :/ I will not go to university again, at least not next year... I'm probably gonna do the community manager training because it only lasts 1 year and it seems SO fun ! (I hope I will not be disappointed lol) 

So I decided (my parents kind of forced me) to get my driver licence ! I already wanted to get my driver license but I didn't have money for it, so my father said that he would pay for it. At least I'm gonna do something during these months besides going out with my bestie that I LOVE SO MUCH <3 She's the one that comforts me, and helps me to not care so much about my parents opinion about my life lol. 

In conclusion being 20 is hard and very weird, but I'm looking forward to the rest of my twenties !