First Time Clubbing and More

In celebration of my 18th birthday last week I went clubbing for the first time last night with some friends. It was ok, a little overstimulating but I lived with it. Everyone showed up at my place around 5 and we all pre-gamed there, which was nice. I didn't drink that much since I don't really like drinking.

We got out to the clubs a little later but I bought myself a little treat for my 18th. I bought myself a pack of cigarettes just so I could try them. Got myself some Manchester sapphire blues, they aren't that rough which is a good thing. It probably helps that I've smoked weed before but oh well. I didn't really get any hit from them which is good I think, it'll make it easier for me to stop smoking if I do start doing it more, which I doubt I'll even do, I think I'll only smoke with friends.

The clubs where pretty fun, I didn't really buy any drinks though, they all taste like shit tbh. Only drinks I like are the sweet ones like Vodka Cruisers, but most clubs don't have them and if they do you get looked at weird which I don't like. We rotated between 3 clubs all night, but only really stayed at 2 of them. One of the clubs I really liked had a ball pit for no reason and I would just spend most my night in there. I met a really nice girl in the ball pit, all her friends where making out in the ball pit while we where talking which is pretty funny. We ended up walking around for a bit but then she went off with her friends and I never saw her again which sucks. I really liked her.

We ended up going home around 2 am and I slept in until midday, luckily it was a Sunday and I didn't have work. When I woke up my friends decided to drag us all to the beach which was fun and then we got some hot chips and just hung out.

Even though all this nice things are happening in my life I can't help but keep feeling like my life is getting worse and worse. I can't really find any reasons to keep going. It also feels like I don't deserve this feeling of sadness when I have it so good in life. But oh well, I just gotta keep pushing I guess.

Raccoon.