the job market, money struggle, and more (a lil vent)

i feel so bad abt money rn hoollyyyyy sshhhhiiiiittt,,

me and all of my roommates worked at party city for the month of march together, and that was my last job. all ive thought about since not working there is my mistake of not fucking saving the money i made, i regret that deeply. since then i was promised a job at a different balloon place with the same roommate who got us all to work at party city, only to work there one singular time. i dont blame them for my lack of work at all, but more so blame myself for not finding something sooner. ive tried putting in applications to so many places around me, but Nowhere Is Hiring apparently :/

so many of the applications ive put in have either never gotten back to me, or got back to me just to say "sorry, were not hiring anymore" even though i can clearly see the "Apply now!" still up on websites like indeed and linkdin. the only good thing so far has been my and a few roommates walking around downtown to places to put in physical applications and calling back. so far 2 of the applications seem to be at least a little promising (1 of them more so than the other) so i hope to hear back from them before theyre not hiring anymore.

as well as not finding a job sooner, i feel horrible having a negative account balance. my phone bill auto charged to my account yesterday morning, so now instead of having $2.68 in my bank account i have -$33 in my account now. ive already had 2 separate occasions of having overdraft fees and really dont want a 3rd instance of that.

UPDATE: MY BROTHER IS A BITCH !!1!!11!!1!!1!

basically my older brother at the beginning of this week told me he would send me $200 for a switch i left up at my grandparents house. he said he would have to wait untile friday in order to have the money for it so i said no problem and was excited because me and the roommates were all gonna go up to nashville. i texted him on wednesday asking if he would be able tosend a little bit more because i owed some of the roommates for the hotel fees and gas money to get there and before i could even ask an amount (i was gonna ask for $220, the most $240) and he replied "yea ill send $275" so i was obv more excited abt that amount. then friday finally came and i texted him a couple times, to which he never replied. then i called, and no answer. after that i was like "alr lemme give my mom a call about it" and she told me that he was at work that night so i said id just call him tomorrow (saturday). i texted called once during the day and texted him after calling our other brother (he said that bro was at work) and said "hey sry for texting and calling so much, my bank account is in the negative rn and im just really trying not to be in the negative. sorry for calling while ur at work" and he replied "thats why u homo" (he is homo). then later around 5/6pm i called my mom and asked if he was at work and she told me he had just gotten off work and that he went straight to cvs so he was probably putting money in his account so i said Ok Word! i waited an hour, no texts or anything. i walked over to my roommates job and still nothing. as i was walking over to the thrift store by our apartment i was like alr ive been had enough of ts. i called him 5 times and he didnt pick up once, so i texted "bro. talk to me. call me or smth" and he replied 10 min later saying "i cant pay you" OKAY !!??!?!??! WHY TF ARE YOU GONNA TELL ME YOU WILL AND THEN JUST SIMPLY WONT??? anyways i texted him back and said "not even a little bit of the amount ?" (to get me out of the negative) "if you could send me the money you couldve talked to me." and all he said back was "no" and ooOOOOOO..

1: i am -$54 dollars rn bc of stupid ass overdraft shit

2: i already owe $118 to 3 of the roommates

3: yOU SHOULDVE BEEN TOLD ME IF YOU COULDNT FUCKING PAY ME OH MY GOD

im just genuinely so pissed off, at the job market and now my older brother. please god let me be up for ONCE. ugh.

-coop