i hate having OLD (complaining!!)

i have a thing called obsessive love disorder and i have been obsessed with a friend of mine, who has a big crush on my other friend and literally it hurts. why? because i know i will never be enough for them im a perfect friend and there for them all the time. 

and all i hear is that they miss them and im getting tired of dealing with it!! jealously kills me and i have to act like i don’t think about them all the time! like good god im sick of it ;n;