my gay awakening!!!

so I realized the other day that I never have rlly told anyone my gay awakening... lets talk about it!!

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I think I first started to realize in 6th grade, because I was being rejected by women A LOT, so I really took a break from it a lot. Entering seventh grade, I was kind of focusing on making new friends because there were SOOO many new people! I was lucky enough to be accepted into a group with soo many supportive and queer people that helped (and still help) me to become who I am today. So when I started to realize, I think I was in denial that I was gay because it was an unfamiliar feeling for me. 

Around this time, I got together with a girl, let's call her tomato (that name was her choice!!). We both had a crush on each other, but it really went away when we actually got together (I've looked it up, its called lithromanticism I think??) and we just decided to break up (we're still friends!!). 

A few days after we broke up, a new guy (we'll call him baldie, I'll explain why in another blog post) came to our school. I started feeling an attraction towards baldie and we eventually started dating. I think this is the time where I finally became confortable with the fact that I might be gay, and I think that Tomato really helped with that (as did all of my other friends too)