"life isnt fair"

WHY THE FUCK DOES EVERY SINGLE PERSON I MET AND TRY TO GET TO KNOW THEM THEY ALWAYS ASK "ARE U A LESBIAN" AND I LOWKEY HATE TO LIE BUT MY MOM IS IN THE ROOM SO I HAVE TO SAY "NO IM NOT" CUSS MY MOM IS A HOMOFOBIC . IM SICK OF MY LIFE , I HAVE NO FRIENDS , NO ONE TO VENT TO ,NO ONE TO GO WHEN I WANT TO SH . BUT EVERYONE I KNOW HAS ME AS A THERAPIST, BUT WHAT ABOUT ME ???? AND I CANT EVEN MAKE NEW ONES CUSS ITS SO FUCKING HARD.AND TODAY I MET A NEW GUY AND HE WAS ASKING ME QUESTIONS LIKE "what kind of music do u listen to" or " what do you like to do " AND I FINALLY FELT WORTH OF SOMETHING I FINALLY  I FELT CONFIDENCE .WHY CANT I FELL LIKE THAT ALL THE TIME