someone from my school died last night

A kid from my school committed suicide on friday night. he was getting heavily bullied and the counselors and principal turned a blind eye. at first, a rumor was spread that he had r@ped his sister. then he later admitted to r@ping not his sister, but a girl from another school. he said he wasnt on his medication and he didnt mean it. he also got punched by a boy at school whos sister he had slapped. the kid had talked many times about his hatred for black and hispanic people, as well as women. he was highly problematic within the school. i know he wasnt a good person, but i don’t remember him being that bad the year prior. sure he was an idiot and said some stupid things, but nothing this bad. i cant help but feel sad about his death. he was bad, yes, but i didnt want him to die. i dont know if this is selfish of me or if this is wrong considering he SA’d a girl. but i watched the happiness fade from his face for months. we all saw this coming, we all saw the writing about him on the bathroom stalls that would tell him to hurt himself. nobody did anything and i cant help but grief, even if i barely talked to him. that was someones son, someones baby. i know he wouldnt have been like this, something went wrong in his life. he had been in and out of mental hospitals, and now hes gone. i need to know if its okay to feel this way.