Wishing i was a cool older brother

Ughh i just wanna reincarnate as a cool older brother who plays video games all the time, has the coolest room ever and stuff. I don’t know anything about boyhood or just being a boy but still i sometimes wish i was born a boy because i’d feel much more confident this way plus i’d wear guyliner lol. Idk i think I’d be a good boyfriend too and I’d feel more secure with my style. I mean i have no problem being a girl I’m really glad i got to be in the girlhood and experiencing that joy of being a girl that you can’t really explain but still I’m so curious about being a boy or just boys in general. I just sometimes think maybe i’d be happier if i was born a boy but i try not to think about it like i said earlier i like being a girl but I’m just curious. Lmao my curiosity is gonna kill me.