(ᵕ•́ -•̀) overthinking

feeling kinda stressed out and overwhelmed rn. sorry in advance cause this is going to be rant filled.

I was originally an architecture student i thought it was something i could do half-heartedly, something i'd learn to love. only to realize that in the end, it really wasn't for me. in just my 2nd year i got diagnosed with clinical depression and had to take anti-depressants (which were lexapros, tho i'm off of them now). i took a break for a semester and thought i'd be fine when i get back- newsflash, i wasn't.

to cut the long story short, i'm no longer an architecture student. and now im looking through possible courses/programs i could shift to (yes, its important to be a college grad where im from, almost every job-esp ones that pay properly- look for those who are college grad).

i keep finding one then over-thinking if ill ever be good enough to do it. if im skilled enough for it. if im smart enough for it.

then comes my worry over expenses. over time lost. over a future that's yet to come.

idk, its hard to not worry about getting a job. a good paying one at that. esp with this economy?

sigh, idk,

i hope by tomorrow ive stopped worrying too much, nothing good ever comes out from it.

thx for reading

<3, gigi