24 HR NO SLEEP CHALLENGE !!! (gone wrong)

imm nvr staying up all night EVR again . my therapist told me the best way to reset yr circadian rhythm was but a matter of simple, healthy lifestyle choices: eating earlier (and cleaner, no chilis triple dippers at 1am ╯︵╰, ), and waking up as early as possible so as to allow yr body to naturally let itself become tired at the target hour . your brain is kinda good at realizing what it needs . so ! i took her advice ! taking two shroom gummies (not the ego death kind •﹏•;) at 9 pm, working on my spacehey profile, and NOT getting any sleep whatsoever until my limbs literally shut down and i pass out completely not of my own accord . i figured, how early can early get ? waking up at 6am is a chore; you instantly grow to hate the sound of yr alarm, even if you change it to yr favorite song of all time in an attempt to wake up in a good mood, so *already* being awake at 6 seemed to make perfect sense to me . depriving yr body of a necessity so it craves it so much it has no choice but to fix itself as soon as possible seemed liderally foolproof . until i realized

NOT SLEEPING FUCKING SUXXXXXXXXX !!!!

i dont mean to be melodramatic, and i dont even think i was able to make it a full 24 hours (eventually conked out at 10am watching jacksepticeye play substance 1, where he seemed to be building a meth empire using horse semen and chili powder as his main ingredients) but i dont think the human mind was built to withstand the psychological horrors of cognitively processing an entire 8 hours of darkness with no respite and continuing the day after as the birds begin to chirp , sending mating signals at the ripe hour of 5 in the morning (at least some organism on this planet understands priorites ─‿‿─ ) . cerebrospinal fluid is apparently far more regenerative than any smoke shop lions mane mushroom slop cubes, and my brain appeared to start leaking out of my ears as the sounds of my roommates desperate pleas for chick fil a eventually lead it to believe the only way itd survive is if it stuck w the pack . do you know how upsetting bacon egg and cheese biscuits are from a chicken restaurant ? i couldnt have thought to get the chicken minis like a normal human being ? what is wrong with me ? should i be shot on site ? do i deserve to breathe the same air as the birds whose call symbolizes yet another cycle of the earths rotation ? why shant i respect the same balance they do ? why shant i, as well, attempt to mate at 6am ? now Theres a reason to get up early

sorry i kinda lost the plot here . ill try to make my future blog posts more coherent and less stream-of-sleep-deprived-consciousness . as i write, it's currently 2 am april 26, 2025: the day after i slept for 7 hours from 10am to 5pm after trying to stay up for 24+ hours . i hope to never repeat this mistake . may jesus forgive me