Life is moving on

I'm not really sure what I should put here. I guess it's always good to get my thoughts out and journal stuff, so I think I'll try that more.

I feel like my life is just going in a spiral right now, I'm stuck in a dead end job that doesn't like me, I have no plans for the future, and I didn't study anything worth while in high school so I can't even get into uni. I spend all my days doing the exact same thing, rotting in bed or behind my computer screen just doing nothing, I was so excited to get my PC but now I don't even do anything with it, I stare at my steam library and then go lie in bed.

I'm scared of growing up too, I just turned 18 6 days ago and I'm having my big party tonight which is cool but I'm still scared. I don't want to grow up, it feels like just yesterday I just got into high school and was worrying about finding friends, now I'm an adult and that's scary.

I mean at least there is a good side somewhat, I'll be able to write some new poetry which is good, I should write some more but I didn't really like the place I was mentally when I was writing my other ones I was really depressed and hated myself. But I guess true art is always made when you're really miserable, I forgot who said this but it was something like "Misery and sadness is the only true emotion we feel" not sure if I even got that quote right.

This is probably enough for one post, might make another who knows, hope everyones having a good day/night.

Raccoon