my life-saving luv story

(i literally looked up 'emo love wlw' in images just for this pic. shouts out to the og illustrator)

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just for a small origin story-esque paragraph: it was 2023, just a few months before summer began. i remember i began having these thoughts where i began to feel scared of my own 'eventual' death. the same day i went to see beau is afraid in theaters, i began having this heavy feel in my chest where i began having a thought that i was gonna die that same night, but i brushed it off as if i had "low blood sugar" and waited until the movie end (mind u, it was three hours long), and then went to buy a small soda because i thought that would fix it. that same night, i began panicking in my room, and i was fearing to fall asleep thinking that i was gonna die. turns out i was actually having a panic attack, but that thought of me dying lasted for nearly a month. 

even before that panic attack and during that panic attack, i had thoughts of me dying. i felt like i didn't find my purpose. that wasn't until a few weeks later. now, here's the love story. 

it was may 2023, and it was during yves' birthday(?), this girl put on a story celebrating her birthday. and just like that, i sent the message that would change both of our lives for the good. however, it wasn't until june where we both declared ourselves as best friends, and we began to talk more daily than other person i had talked before. and just after that, my thoughts of dying were gone in a blink.

we spent our days together, we watched movies together, we spent calls - the longest one being over nearly a day long - and we never got tired of each others.

the most anticipated day of my whole life arrived in 2025, where we finally met in person, and both spent the best times of our lives together. both of us didn't even want that trip to end, we wanted to stay together. 

nearly two months after our trip, i said the thing that will make me just as happy as the time we met in person, do you wanna be my girlfriend?

and just like that, our lives have been going so beautiful after that.

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if they're seeing this, i hope you know that i love you so much, and i'll never do anything that would hurt you. <3