Love is difficult

   Watching my parents when I was little. 

Everyday they fought. 

I dont think there was a moment where they even loved each other.. 3 kids aside... 

  The mental and the physical abuses displayed to my young eyes from both my mom and dad. 

  Im scared i'll be like my parents.

i've always believed in finding the one,

but whenever i think i do i fuck it up in some way..

 I'm not the victim,

 i've hurt so many people 

but whenever it gets too real i run away,

i get scared, 

i cant commit

i'm a fucked up person but i am not my parents. 

I want to experience Love without getting tired 

and feeling overwhelmed 

when can i Love without hurting people?