Please leave me alone... [Autism Rant]

I hate it when adults in my life [teachers mainly] see me sitting alone in a corner during lunch and tell me "you should talk to your friends!" "don't sit in a corner, you should be socializing instead!"

Just today I was eating lunch alone, like i normally do, but today I was kind of upset because during math my teacher flicked my arm (it hurt) and said i shouldn't be doodling in a kind-of-condescending tone. Now, i need to doodle or else I can't concentrate and get bored. keep in mind i was almost done with my work, i was the bonus question, and wanted to draw teto. anyway this upset me because i feel awful when i get reprimanded/scolded and i usually cry and feel a little mad. this was no different.

when i was heading up to lunch, i was feeling a bit resentful and tired and just wanted to calm down eating food and watching funny cats. about 10 minutes later a teacher walked out of their classroom that i was sitting a good few feet away and stopped to tell me the same thing. only this time he was being kind of rude and wouldn't accept the fact i like being alone and said he'd stop all freshmen from sitting upstairs (there were other classmates sitting alone) because they wouldn't socialize. basically he believed that everyone should sit together, and if not, well fuck them.

this made me really fucking mad but i didn't tell him that.

i should note that i actually like my math teacher and the second teacher is a 10th grade teacher that is kind of known for being a bit strict.