In a perpetual state of YEARNING (somebody sedate me)

I want a lot of things right now. I want my drivers license. I want more money. I want my own place. I want everyone to like me. I really want someone to hold me right now.

I broke up with my shitty ex 2 years ago. He wasn't a good person. I miss being in a relationship to be honest. I have friends that love me, but I want to be loved in a different way. I want to wake up next to somebody and hold them and be held. I want to lazily touch their hair while I pass the time. I know that I'm not unlovable (i think) but I really miss that level of connection. I know that right now, I need to focus on myself and grow as a person. Theres a lot of things I'd like to work on before I open myself up again. Gosh man, I just really want to kiss someone on their forehead. I don't even know what I want anymore.

Nothing really satisfies me right now. I know comparison is the thief of joy or something but I want to share my compassion with someone else. I don't know. Mel Medarda, you get me.

I want my hair to grow a little longer. I want to live somewhere else. I want to go on vacation. I want to be loved and not tolerated. I cannot anymore AGHHHHH! Anywho.....

Thank you for your eyes ballz. I am not a coherent or a cohesive writer.