EVERYTHING SUX.

S o. that was a hyperbole, my Friend. but still, everyything kind fo does suck--IM CRYING WHILE BAKING STRAWBERRY CAKE. strawberry cake for being 1 month clean from sel f harm. its kind of unfair, to be hones t, beig this clean. I dont Want to .... at all. but its worth it cause it makes her smile a lot, and We're trying to dio gtis together.

I DONT KNOW!!! dONT trust what im saying right now, brvause  i am having hte craziest mood swings pf all time!  but its okayt. thinsg are looking UP

And speaking of u p.......im reading more. i read an entire comic yesterday--gyo, by junji ito. it was super fucking Weird, btu i appreciated it. tThat whole circus thing.. err, didnt particilayrlu get thje idea. Actually, maybe Junji was trying to emphasize how th epeople Are kind of being usd as circus anials to feul the machines. Or maybe i shuld shut up n its SERIOUSLY not tht deep.... nnnnnnnnnnnnn

anyways. tday I Rad the crow, ive had the comic FOREVER. LIKE, it took a year fo me to actualy o[en it/. its cause mydad bguht it for me, and i wuz likeee... erm. Ya thnax. at first. but now i like it; hlad i Read tha thing. itss sooooooooo beautifylll every page is so intricate... 

but, ya/ . i got put on new meds today. MOOD STABILIZERS. killiung msefl--NOW!