missing a friend

so yeah ive moved and everythings great, ive been living where i am now for about 2 and a half months now. surprisingly i made a lot of friends but now things are stating to balance out. im not quite super close to anyone right now. because of that ive missed my friends back home alot, especially my main special friend T. i try to message them often and update them but they work in an odd way so they never really seem that interested me, i try not to let it get to me tho and just tell myself its how they text.

the other night i missed them alot and was really sad because we used to be so close and would talk heaps everyday, so i told them that i missed them. they felt sorry but.... they said they feel different towards me and that we dont quite see eye-to-eye anymore. it hurt when they said that texting me feels grating. fuck. its not just because of the distance, things have just changed. they always prefer doing things in person and if theyre not able to do that then they quickly lose interest in a person no matter how close theyve been so yeah. i visited home a couple weeks and saw them, we had a small party with friends at their house and got hella drunk. we were supposed to do something together the next day but they were too hungover and called it off. i was okay with it at the time but now........ 

it hurts cause theyre so cool. and the nicest person ive ever met. they looked out for me so much. i told them my secrets and my past. i trusted them to see the deepest parts of my soul, and now, i dont mean much to them. 

i do try to cling onto them. i still try texting them about things but they put no effort into our conversations. i tell them i love them and miss them but the only thing they feel is an odd absence where i used to be.