be my friend!! (life updates)

i'm not sure who's reading this, but as i'm doing well, i hope you are too. i'm trying to be more active on spacehey as i really want more friends and i genuinely enjoy hearing from all of you :)

i really, REALLY like my girlfriend. i never thought i'd ever meet anyone like her and she's everything to me, but more on that later. anyways, how's life been, remi? i hear in the distance (no i do not who cares). 

i started the second vial of DIY testosterone today (with medical guidance and sterilised needles do not worry), i've fallen out of writing songs recently but desperately want to get back into it (however i can't right now because of a LOT of certain circumstances, specifically having someone at my house for a while). 

i've met so many amazing people over the past months, online and in person, and i'm really hoping i can build the community i've always dreamed of. real and genuine caring people who want to help the world as much as they can. i myself want to get into either medicine, social work or music - but my girlfriend is going to be a criminal lawyer, one of my friends is trying to be an addiction counsellor, etc. i truly do want to surround myself with the people who see eye to eye with me and i don't want to sacrifice my own happiness ever again.

i've been pretty off-and-on mental health wise but i'm really hoping dbt will work well for me, i am very much trying to get to a better space and i do believe it's working. sometimes i think my girlfriend's presence alone is enough to make the world stop hurting and i love her for every second of it.

i'll be moving in with her over the next few weeks and i love her dearly, i get to see her tomorrow when she comes back to the city and we're going to do edibles together and just. well. hold each other, yknow? she's my whole world right now, honestly. i'm even getting more comfortable with my own body after long years of trauma just because of her. 

i think it's all going to be okay.