ive returned.... (-_o) and im 18 now...

ive been so inactive LOL even tho i said i was gunna try 2 be sorreee.... 

im 18 now!!!!! my birthday was 2 months ago.....    i got a cd player and some cds which was cool!! but no cake or party. even tho i asked 4 one... oh, well. is not having a cake for your 18th depressing? 

anyway, i also got a car which is fun but i cant use it w/o permission waaahhh not like i go out much anyways hashtag shut in..

BUT! ive been playing a lor more minecraft lately since i finally got it on my laptop so im on mc like 24/7!!!! literally!!! its a pretty cool world with my friends and we call on discord and stuff and play on it its so ace (☆▽☆) and ive also been blasting infinity on high on my cd player. SO ACE!!!!! 

even though im trying to be more active on here, im tonssss more active on discord. punkercd there if you wanna add me! and i have a sick server too discord.gg/theblackparade if ur interested heh \(￣︶￣*\)) might do an art dump here next or something i dunno

okay this is where i get kinda corny and cringe so tw for emo crap

i thought turning 18 would feel cooler in a way. idk. the day came and passed like it meant nothing to my parents and we didnt even celebrate that much. i didnt even get a cake, man!!!! i had to go get a birthday candle to blow it on its own myself, my parents didnt even think about it or buy me a special "18" candle or anything. turning 18 is already a milestone and shit but dawgs ive attempted "you-know-what" like 3 times in my life so its an even bigger deal that i was able to make it this far. my parents are aware of all my mental problems and stuff but its like they dont care. to make matters even better, they sat me down and had a talk with me about "responsibilities" some days ago but it basically escalated to my dad calling me a loser and implying that im some sort of lying psycho that wants to tear apart the family lol (only because cps had been to our house before and nothing even happened). my dad also made it very clear how happy he was that he can "say and do anything he wants to me" bc cps wont care since im a legal adult now and that "i have no one to call or go to" jesus. fucked up. 

yeah i didnt have a great easter. or 4/20. 

(。_。) 

anyway, thats all i guess. OH and my stupid crazy ex contacted me AGAIN on my birthday. but thats a lore dump for l8er maybe.... im gonna hop on minecraft again ☆⌒(*＾-゜)v the grind never stops 💯