𐙚⋆°｡⋆♡ gabichan's diary - jiraimaxxing

hi spacehey!!!! currently im sitting on the couch after just getting home from work. theres a soft purring kitty running a biscuit factory out of my lap rn. and tomorrows my day off!!!! yaaaaayyy!!! my body hurts, but at least i have tomorrow off. i plan on doing absolutely nothing,,, well maybe ill pienmaxx and get some good ig photos. i do need to also take a pic of the nails i have on rn that my friend made for me. we'll see if i can get off the couch before the sun sets today to do that lmao. if not its another task for tomorrow

these jiraimaxxing tiktok accounts are making me paranoid. i know im later in the game than most of the baby jirais being posted on those, but im still scared that im chopped lmfao. its hard to tell... some days i think im so pienmaxxing and others i really do feel chopped. it makes me lose a bit of passion for the style when i have to worry about the little things. i think i do everything correctly, but what if others look at me and think im ugly or not jirai enough? it almost makes me want to stop using the internet and posting photos of myself. but if im not gabichan, if i cant cling to my online persona and get attention on the internet, then what? i feel like the internet is such an important part of my life and self image. i might be absolutely cooked. 

anyway, thats it for now. time to go ponder this shit lmao