no sleep n thoughts

one of those nights when it’s hard to sleep n the fact that i got school in 5 hours don’t help either

up late thinking about how i don’t want to be stuck working minimum wage my entire life, how i want to be the most successful in my bloodline, how i need to make my parents proud and be a great example for my younger siblings, but sometimes i feel as if i won’t achieve any of that

sometimes it feels like life is going downhill and nothing goes right, how one way or another i messed up something and i ruined it forever, how i can’t seem to do something right 

everything seems to flood in late at night, makes me both love and hate it at times

id like to think that hard times don’t last forever and assuming that there is a reason for everything, one door that closes opens another one but it’s hard to keep a positive mindset when so many negatives hit you at once 

:p