Can’t Sleep

Hello, I can’t sleep so I’m gonna write about something…

I’m really tired of living, but that doesn’t mean I want to be unalive ;-; it’s just really hard and boring and exhausting…sometimes I have fun, like talking to friends  or playing a fun game, or hanging out with my bf :3 …… but everyday feels the same.

I wake up, go to work, get home and eat, maybe play some games or watch tv, and then sleep. Monday-Saturday…Over and over and over and over and over and over and over again…for the past 4 years.

I know in order to for something to be different I have to do something “different.” I want things to change but it’s almost impossible, because I have bills to pay, I also need to eat and that cost money. My family also depends on me, without this job my family would lose its only source of income…we’d be homeless.

So what can I do…how do I escape this cycle of doom, I hope one day I’d make enough to have the freedom to do the things I love, to go travel and experience new things. 

But for now all I can do is hope ;-; 

Peace✌️