ecological succession in our lives

  There's a term in ecology called succession. And it's the process an ecosystem goes through to recover it self from a disturbance like a fire, a cutting, or a storm. And I'm going through my own succession too. I wrote about this in my first blog, but I'm in a very hard breakup rn. This woman was my future, and my piece of Heaven on Earth, and I thought she was genuinely the one. We were that close and we connected that much. Only for her to leave to focus on her life because she's moving to Japan and I can't come with her. 

  This shredded my heart up, like I might not even be clinically alive rn. This has brought me to such a low point in my life and I'm only feeling emotions rn. But in this I've found an opening. I'm in college, not my first choice but I'm here anyway and I've always wanted to join the military because that's what I've always wanted to do. To be as strong as my dad, I want to be his hero. So I've made the decision to do it. I'm jumping into the unknown and seeing where it leads me. It's dangerous and different than what I'm used to, but the unknown is what led others to greatness. You think the Wright brothers weren't scared when they flew for the first time? Does Bob the Builder wonder if he can't build it? No, he just builds it because that's who he is, a dawg. 

  Moral of the story is, no matter how far you fall down succession will always rebuild you. One way or another, God will make a way for you when it seems there's none. Sit with yourself in hard times, you won't regret feeling emotions. The presences of darkness is the contrast to the light around you.