I don't know, sometimes I think that having a romantic relationship would be very cosy and comfortable

 I don't know how to say. Ever since I was a child, I thought that relationships were something of an "obligation", something that although it was good, it wasn't necessarily something that would be good forever and that you needed to have, I believe I had this thought because my parents never had a good relationship and all the relationships I saw always went wrong or something that didn't seem to have the "magic" that they talked about so much.

But today, I tend to consume works that show relationships or something like that, and it gives me some kind of "comfort", even if it's not with me. I love watching series and films that have cute and comfortable relationships, like Uzi and N from Murder Drones, or even artwork I see on Pinterest of cute couples, and when I see a couple on the internet who look exactly like I imagine a "perfect" relationship, I think "God, I want to have someone like that all to myself".

Ever since I reached my teens and started watching films, series and cartoon with these types of relationships, I've started to have a different view of "love". I'm not one to get attached to relationships that are kind of "ordinary", like the ones we see on a daily basis, our parents or something like that, but rather a relationship that's a little "different" from the ones we're used to, something like treating the person you're with not as a "commitment" or "obligation", but rather something like treating the person you're with as something “special”, like a "best friend", giving them affection, hugs and kisses all the time, giving handmade gifts, sweet compliments, snuggles, jokes, watching TV together, cuddles on my head when I lie on your lap, sleeping snuggled up, kissing my head until I go to sleep, something really ROMANTIC that represents true LOVE, something you can keep to yourself and be happy and comforted every time you remember that this person is only yours.

I don't know how to explain it better than that, I simply want to be able to have this relationship someday, I want to feel the comfort of having this love just for you, I want to feel welcomed, I want someone to hug, kiss, someone who take care of me, who isn't someone from my family, someone I want to live with forever, someone I don't get tired of and who doesn't make it an "obligation" to be with this person, someone I can feel special, comforted, I want to feel what TRUE LOVE is.

I love being alone, I love silence and solitude, but sometimes I also need someone to take me in and love me.

- Coffe Pie

04/21/2025