Looked Good. That’s All That Mattered.

Ok, let me set the scene for you.

Me:

• A backless wrap halter top, cargo jeans, heels, mini handbag

• A semi-full face of makeup

• Skin smelling like vanilla and butterscotch

• Silver body glitter from my neck to torso

• My everyday hairstyle but cute nevertheless

Although I was running late, I still looked incredible and despite worrying about coming too late to watch the movie I ended up making it right on time! I was relieved when I found out the movie hadn’t even started when I got there. He was waiting for me by the theater doors so I just went in and found him. We never made much conversation when we met up, I asked him if he bought his ticket already (he did) and I apologized for being late. I bought my ticket and went in. When we reached the theatre he found us a seat close to the back and we sat down. When we sat down he took my purse and put it beside him and he started telling me how excited he was for the movie (He loves Minecraft to death so I get him). I don’t really remember what we spoke about in detail but what I do remember:

1. I saw him reaching over to hold my hand so I gave him my hand. Turns out I thought wrong because instead of holding my hand he put my hand between his and began squeezing my hand really hard. He told me it was my punishment for coming late. I thought that was a bit extreme so I told him to stop. He didn’t. I tried to move my hand away, but that didn’t work either. It got to a point where I got mad and twisted his fingers. He complained that it hurt and that I was being aggressive. Ok then.

2. He touched my hair and asked why it was so dry. I said my hair absorbs moisture quickly so sometimes it’s just like that. I thought that was a good explanation but apparently it wasn't, because he kept bringing up how dry my hair was while we were watching the movie.

3. He was upset that I wore body glitter. I don’t know why but he hated it 😭. He was complaining that he would have to go home and bathe again because I’m getting glitter all over him.

4. Although I hate PDA I was up for kissing him in the theatre since I promised him 18 kisses for his eighteenth birthday. What made me mad was the fact that I would be watching the movie and he would grab my face periodically and turn it to kiss him. He didn’t say anything before he did it. He would just do it. That took the fun out of everything.

5. During intermission he got up to buy something and he didn’t even ask me if I wanted anything. He just bought himself a hotdog and a soda, came back and ate his food by himself. We could’ve shared a popcorn or a portion of nachos but no.

When we came out of the theater I asked him if we should get something to eat because both of us were hungry. He said he needed to use the bathroom so we decided to go and then walk around and think about what we were going to eat. While we were walking down the stairs I saw my dad just chilling and nursing a cup of soda from The Grill I didn’t want to be rude so I told him to come and say hi to my dad. He didn’t want to, so I went over to my dad by myself and told him how everything was going. My dad asked who he was and I told my dad he was one of my friends. While this was happening he was just off at the side looking around.

I then went and used the bathroom and then came out and couldn’t find him. At first I thought he was still in the bathroom so I was waiting on him then I told myself that he might have wandered off. I hoped he didn’t because that would be rude of him. Turns out he did. I was annoyed when I just saw him walking around but I calmed myself down and went over to him. Instead of asking him why he didn’t wait on me I told him “Let's order food and sit down and talk.” He said “The food court is closing so he doesn’t want to” - this was not true but I didn’t say anything. I just walked over to The Grill and ordered some fries for myself. After I got my receipt I said “Ok let’s just walk.” Our plan was to go upstairs and roam around outside and stuff. I again don’t remember everything that happened while we were walking but I do remember:

1. While we were walking up the stairs he spotted a group of kids that go to school with him and instead of saying hi he wanted to avoid them. This meant we were turning around and walking in a different direction, moving oddly to avoid them and pretending not to notice them whenever we were close to them. I never thought it was that serious. The crowd he was avoiding didn't even acknowledge him so his efforts seemed silly.

2. When we went outside we talked for a little. While we were talking I was looking for a good place for us to sit down because I was getting tired of walking. He then asked me why I was wearing heels. In response I told him it’s because none of my other shoes match my shirt and that I thought they were cute so I wore them. He then proceeded to ask me why I couldn't just wear a regular shirt. In response I told him that I wore it because it was cute. While I was responding to him I was really mad. When we met up he never complimented me ONCE and I KNOW my outfit was good. I was getting stared down by people who admittedly were much more handsome than him and yet I got nothing from him.

We ended up walking back inside and once again avoiding the crowd of school kids. I then went and collected my fries. He wanted to go home and at that point I wanted to hang out for a bit longer but I understood he was going to take a taxi to go over and he might not be able to get one if he stayed any later. I then told him that he can ask my dad for a ride because my dad wouldn’t care as long as he is respectful. He told me no. He then said he’s gonna drop me off at my dad’s car and head home. I was perfectly fine with that because at this point I wanted him out of my sight.

When he brought me over to my dad’s car he stood there for a bit while I talked to my dad. Then when I was done I turned around and waved to him, I had no intention of giving him a hug or a kiss because he didn't deserve it. He didn’t move when I waved so I walked over to him, I looked at him and told him bye. Instead of saying goodbye he instead asked me if everything was ok. We looked at each other for a bit and then I looked away and said I was ok. To ease the tension he jokingly said he hoped a car hit him while he was trying to get home. Although that joke was horrible on so many levels I laughed and told him that he needs to stop making jokes like that. He responded by saying “No really, I hope that happens.” I was so tired at that point I just said “ok.” He then asked me if I was agreeing with him and I said “No, but you can’t always be fighting someone who never listens.” I then told him bye and got into my dad’s car.

I was visibly upset so my dad asked what was wrong and I ended up telling him. He then told me it was ok and gave me his soda to finish. While I was waiting for my sister (Yes she was there too) I was looking out the window when I saw a guy sitting on a wheelchair ramp ledge by himself looking right at me. I thought he was cute but I didn’t wave at him or anything. We just sat there looking at each other. When my sister found their way to the car and my dad was driving out to leave, I saw the guy get up and start walking back inside the mall where his friends were sitting.

When I got home I was so sad. I couldn't believe it. I looked so nice, I tried so hard to make everything work out and he just had to be the wrong guy. I’m still a little sad now but I’m just trying to tell myself that although the date itself was bad I looked good yesterday and that I also watched a funny movie and ate fries.