Right now

So lately I been watching something called serial experiments lain and reliazed how realteable it is yk and like skins uk. Lately I been doing online school due to severe bullying by my old school. And right now I'm scared I'm scared because in 2 days it's my graduation to upper school and that means I have to see my old classmates again and right now I have a choice of not going to graduation or I could go but right now I don't know what to choose if I do I will wear a costume to hide myself I have so much trauma from that school that it sometimes affects me outside of it. I'm scared