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Counting down the days to about a year when I was going to kill myself or what they would call suicide attempt.
Presently, I can feel the depression setting in.
I can feel the overwhelm taking over.
To be honest, I'm not sure what's happening, but I'm glad that of all the things that are happening.
I'm not in the same place that I was last year.
December 4 2020, was not a day that I want to relive, but I'm very happy that I went through it.
It's a day where I realize that life is important; that life is grans; that life is simple.
Yet our heads, our activities, our standards, is what makes life so much more difficult.
Living with bipolar, depression, anxiety, every day is a fight and if you're here reading this, I know you fight with me every day of your life and I'm thankful for that.
I'm thankful to know there's a group of people that understand what it's like to live inside their own head to live inside their own mind.
To live inside the thoughts that ruminate over and over and over throughout the day.
Sometimes these thoughts are positive sometimes these thoughts are downright deadly.
I am glad that you're here, reading this sentence, because that means you haven't given up yet.
A year ago I almost gave up.
A year ago I almost lost my life.
A year ago I want it all to be over.
But there was something inside me.
Some other voice; some other being that wanted otherwise.
I'm glad till this day that voice was the one I listened to and not any other voice that yells at me inside my head.
I want you guys to love something today.
Love yourself. Love your pets. Love a family members.
Love something because love matters most.
Be well
Pete Isip
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