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everyones said that at least once in their lives. but most people say otherwise the moment they get in a relationship. ive been in a few relationships myself, yet i could never actually feel love the way they did. i used to date this girl for almost a year (til she broke up w me on my 14th birthday :'3 ) and i never really understood her completely when she said that she loved me. i appreciated her company, we got eachother gifts, but i actually dont know what it feels like to LOVE love some1.
id still like to be in a romantic relationship one day, but for now i just cant wrap my head around it. i know what i like, and when i see someone thats my type either irl or online, i still dont feel that sort of love that some of my friends felt for others. my best friend used to basically s/o hop between different people.. and in my mind i was like "..there is no way you actually love them the same way other relationships are" i guess that thought mostly comes from the fact my parents are really into the whole soulmate thing.
i always wonder if ill ever find my soulmate. not saying that in a low self esteem "i dont deserve love", but more like.. what if our paths never cross because of choices or mistakes either of us made? a lot of people die alone, simply because they never had someone to love in that way. but if my parents are soulmates.. and i have a soulmate.. so should they. which means that they never got that luxury of loving someone that they were destined to love.
i dont really think some members of my family have soulmates. and if they do, its obvious they have a lot to put up with. i mean, i cant imagine any woman willingly dating my brother. hes obnoxious, violent, unpredictable, greedy.. the list keeps going. my mom really believes that hell find someone one day, but i really dont think so. but i guess i sound a little mean saying that, yeah?
i always wonder what my soulmate will be like. hopefully cute, and either 1. being dumb in a really endearing way or 2. being ultra smart, likes to rant about anything and everything. maybe someone with long, brown hair.
ive been worried about my future a lot more than usual these past few nights. i dont really know why, i know that ill only be this age for about a month more, so i should enjoy the moments i have free of taxes and bills and all that adult junk. it just gets to me sometimes, yk?
im gonna go eat dinner now, baiiii :)
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Maa_tysek
Common thoughts ig. I've had the same things in my head too.
It's hard. Relationships r like for real something everyone who had atleast some kind of experience talk could talk about for hours. Everyone has their opinions etc.
I always felt that "real" love is the relationship you get into not on purpose. But love can grow. How I said before, I could write a book on every blog post like this.