Thought log (4) 20th April 2025

I keep thinking about how a friend of mine recently praised me for being a good one and said something along the lines of   

" you're always doing things for your friends and showing up for them "  and I find that really funny now cause I recently went to this small festival thing that my friend was preforming in. this festival was TINY there were like 4 stalls a station to make Lego and friendship bracelets, a photo booth, a cotton candy and popcorn area and then there was a person doing portraits that I was lined up for, I had asked my friend if she could get me some popcorn cause I knew she didn't have anything else to do and I didn't want to lose my place in line cause i'd been waiting a while, she said yeah sure and then went with her boyfriend to line up, not even 2 minuets later they came back because her boyfriend had to start working his shift at the canteen and she said to me " I can't be bothered waiting" and then after that she proceeded to go find her other friends at the festival. now while I don't mind that she went to go talk to her other friends and what not what gets me is the fact she couldn't even wait a couple more minutes to get me popcorn something I would've done for her and in that moment I felt so disrespected cause how can you praise my friendship and talk about how i'm ALWAYS doing things for people including yourself and then just not like do me a favour ONE time??? I dunno it baffles me and I was upset about it for the rest of the night AND I lent her my jacket that I was wearing cause she needed on for her performance mind you this jacket is very special to me cause its my late grandpas jacket and in the performance she had to toss the jacket to the side (if I knew the jacket was going to be used as a prop and not just for looks I wouldn't have given it to her as again its very special to me) but anyways once the festival is over I immediately go to the backstage door to wait for her to come out and as soon as I see her with all HER stuff I asked her where my jacket was and she looks at me like ?? and I ask her again wheres my jacket and then she proceeded to say " I don't know " " it might be still on  the stage " the way I almost started yelling at her right then and there I cannot omg. but anyways I immediately ran to the security and explained the situation and how I need to get my jacket and they let me go onto the stage and thankfully it was still there, my friend who had sort of followed behind me said " I thought someone would've picked it up" GIRL and put it where exactly?? like actually where. it took everything in me not to yell at her cause not only did you give up on getting me popcorn after less then 2mins being in line you also couldn't even make sure you had grabbed my jacket before leaving leaving?? idek I'm baffled and I'm sick of people treating me like shit