Do you feel that people have a weird urge to make everything into a YT video?

So, I am not having the best year ever and my crisis is making some of my interests less and less enjoyable, but also way more narrow. I can totally see that being a good thing, because my apathy and chronic tiredness makes me so selective with anything I do or watch, cause' I don't have energy for meaningless crap rn.

The other day, I was listening to Echanted by Emilie Autumn and though to myself: "Wow, this album is pretty neat". Afterwards, I read something about this impossible master puzzle that she created in attachment to the album, and then stumbled upon this GORGEOOUS in depth Reddit threat about her special parasocial relantionship with her fans and descent into self absorbed hell after the repeated releases of her "biography" that kept pissing people off at her: https://www.reddit.com/r/HobbyDrama/comments/1dh7qdk/music_visual_art_emilie_autumns_asylum_pt_7_black/. 

Then, I noticed how this convoluted and overly detailed text was just the perfect format for this piece of literature (I fucking hate the word "content"). The whole thing just made me happy, it was perfectly narrated with no pretentiousness, and actually felt interractive.

There is something about corporativised social media that feels rather intimidating and isolating. As a black bones YT user, I have noticed the jarring shift between old and new youtube. Back in the late 2000s and early 2010s you had earnest diaries and reviews from people who felt like human beings. Do you know what I mean? They had their own interests and quirks visible to you. But now, everyone uses the same editing style, same sense of humor, same aesthetics, same everything.

I have found myself progressively more drawn to hyper specialized creatives or more mature users. Commentators just feel like modern arbiters of public opinion who just follow what's the new trendic topic (usually some insignificant trend that only exists on TikTok). But, the other day I was hit by this idea that now life imitates the internet.

The internet has become a sort of stationary state that everyone inhabits unwillingly 24/7. When I was a kid, you only were online because you wanted to... The whole thing was a hobby, and people logged in to do specific tasks and then went about their day. But now, workplaces and postmodern networking dynamics push everyone into an omnipresent digital reality.

For God's sake, you even need a phone to order your food in many sit down restaurants. Here in the UK, public acts of proselitism have been classed as "disorderly conduct". But, what about the grassroots off line movements that need to recruit interested pedestrians? I know it sounds shady, but not only religious groups or cults have to engage in these practices. I find them mildly annoying, but I am truly not that bothered.

What I'm trying to say, is that we are increasingly expected to do everything online: Applying for jobs, running events, socialising, reading the news, self branding (because that is a part of the adult world now that anonimity is dead), purchasing products, etc. I am so tired to have this godlike entity over my head all the time and against my will. Still, after adapting to this hellscape, we are scolded for being chronically online like the world didn't groom everyone into becoming chronically online.

I wish there were specialised digital devices for this elemental tasks, and that we only needed each one for a lifetime. Wait... That's in person job applications (which are extinct, I know), outdoor tables and flyers, chatrooms (like the old days), newspapers, real performance, clocks, and blablablah. In a time where people are usually so discontent and lonely, no one needs their actual executive tasks to take place in such a meaningless, socially dissecting, sickening, and content ridden cesspool.

Yeah, this was a long rant O.O

PS: I will actually make an effort to detox from this thing, cause' I'm exhausted.