i'll be very honest

for a long time i felt lost. i didn't have much prospects on what to do with life and i harbored a hatred and an anger inside me that burst out at the worst moments possible. i lived resentful because i was injusticed early on and felt lonely in a world that shunned me at every possible opportunity.

it took me a long time but when i found people who helped me quell that rage and cut out my negative emotions, it was all but impossible to not see what i really wanted out of life.

to be very honest, all i wanted in life was to be happy without having to worry about what comes next. i think i have come very close to reaching that stage in my life.

to all my old friends, i am sorry for cutting you out and pushing you away when all i wanted was to have companions by my side.

to all my new ones, thank you for putting up with me when you had every reason not to.

and to my old self, thank you for waiting. i could have never promised to you that you would have healed. i still can't. you'll still feel the scars. what i can promise is that life gets better. you just have to hold on.

here's to holding on to love again.