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Hey every1 !! Just wanted to come on here and talk about God as some can relate <33
I have been struggling recently my body feels heavy and and I have no motivation 2 do anything 4 myself. I've had so much pride and so much hatred towards myself at the same time, im always sad or discontent w my life and ive been ignoring God a lot, since my mom is an Evangelist Christian and my dad is Catholic I always hear about God and honestly sometimes get mad about what he claims is right and wrong. either way, it seems like I have the worst luck in LITERALLY everything.... but still im very lukewarm of a Christian, sh!t im surprised I even call myself a Christian I sin so much and commit SO MUCH BLASPHEMY that im srsly so confused on who I am.
Today I went to the bathroom and just cried. I repented my sins. It's shocking how impulsive of an action that was regarding recent events.. but I just felt so humiliated? EMBARRASSED of my actions.
Im scared, I don't want to lose my relationship with God again, and the thought of it is preventing me from fixing it. it seems like everyone hates Christians and Christianity?? I know im not supposed to serve the world and serve God instead but jeez I would at least like to not be called crazy every breath I take. And it's in the Bible, "And you will be hated by all for my name's sake, but the one who endures to the end will be saved." -Matthew 10:22.
If theres anything I recommend its the LORD, I feel so much lighter when I walk, not lightheaded, LIGHTER, and I have so much motivation I could do anything right now, im in shock.. LOVE YOURSELF <33 !!
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Akai Hikari
Well, I can relate to your situation in a way, and it's a very delicate subject, but my tip is to try to remember events in which you felt God with you. We really see a lot of hate on the internet sometimes and that's discouraging, but try not to focus on the mean comments. Listen to stories from other people who believe and have had spiritual moments or experienced a miracle. I think that can help.
Sejjjiex
heyy x
i’m not christian but God loves you as long as you still remember him.
if you remember to return to him and repent when you commit a sin then you’re on the right path. Its so easy to turn and sin with no guilt or regard for your faith but you arent
remember that faith is a journey not a constant state xxx