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Lately, I've been having a lot of

suicidal and harmful thoughts. I'm not 

really the type to vent but if I bottle it

it's (literally) gonna hurt more. 

Plus if I tell my friends I feel like

they're all gonna tell me the same thing-

"People will miss you" yes I am aware of

that, it doesn't really help nor change

change the fact that life is getting worse

and being dead is better now. 

I truly believe im better of dead, it makes

everything better and less painful. I hate

every aspect of me and its hard to believe 

anyone would actually like me at all. 

I sometimes just can't see at all how 

my bf even likes me. There's prettier girls

out there, more responsible, more prepared, 

more better than me in general. I'm weird,

I don't know how to be normal. 

No one can really change my mind about

how I feel towards myself. I'm just stuck

like this. I am literally better of dead

for everyone. Or maybe Im just being dramatic?

My emotions are def not valid

♡ ⸝⸝⸝ 🌷 ₊ ⊹